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Why Does Fandom Forget Ron Weasley?
These are the kinds of questions flitting about in my… Read More »Why Does Fandom Forget Ron Weasley?
Major Character Death
I’ve recently read a few books where major characters died–and… Read More »Major Character Death
When Do You Find the Time? An Essay by a Work-From-Home Mother
When Kayla was little, I worked when she slept. This… Read More »When Do You Find the Time? An Essay by a Work-From-Home Mother
Review – Shadow & Bone Trilogy
I’d never heard of Tsarpunk before a friend recommended this… Read More »Review – Shadow & Bone Trilogy
Book Review – Twelve Kings in Sharakhai
I picked up this book in hardcover for $7–what a… Read More »Book Review – Twelve Kings in Sharakhai
My Thoughts – A Court of Thorns & Roses Trilogy
It’s been a long while since I devoured books like… Read More »My Thoughts – A Court of Thorns & Roses Trilogy
My Thoughts – Longmire
One night, my husband reaches for the remote. He browses… Read More »My Thoughts – Longmire
My Thoughts – Mark of the Ninja
I’m currently in this phase where I’m rewatching old series,… Read More »My Thoughts – Mark of the Ninja
Social Sabbatical Results
It’s been just over two months since I announced on… Read More »Social Sabbatical Results
My Thoughts – The Office
I mentioned in another post that I was rewatching The… Read More »My Thoughts – The Office
One of Those Days
Some days, I have zero direction. As you probably guessed… Read More »One of Those Days
Book Review – Turtles all the way Down
It’s been a while since I wrote one of these.… Read More »Book Review – Turtles all the way Down
Let’s Talk About Panic Attacks
Now here’s an uncomfortable topic. One of those most people… Read More »Let’s Talk About Panic Attacks
Things I Miss About Germany
Nobody saw this post coming, right? 😛 Truth is, Europe… Read More »Things I Miss About Germany
Motherhood and Guilt
Now, my generation is a weird one. In South Africa, our… Read More »Motherhood and Guilt
Soldier Through It
The thing is, it’s tough sometimes. Last year was a… Read More »Soldier Through It
This Mothering Thing
I often wonder when the exact point is when a person becomes a mother. And I don’t mean the ‘having the kid’ part. I mean the internal shift to ‘mothering’. Is there a moment when you suddenly just know instinctively what to do? Do you have to learn how to mother? It’s probably different for everyone, so I can’t claim to know the answer.
What I do know is that I was that woman who never handled babies before they were at least three months old. I never changed another kid’s diaper (and I still haven’t) and I gladly gave them back to their mommies when the tears started coming (and I still do).
And then I had my own kid. I was terrified before she was born, because I had so little experience with babies. What if I couldn’t dress her, because she’d be so little? What if that I sucked at changing diapers or couldn’t bathe her? What if she cried and I couldn’t soothe her? What if I couldn’t feed her? What if she woke up in the middle of the night and I didn’t? What if, what if, what if?!?!