After the Writing Update post, I was asked how it’s going otherwise. So, here we are.
Somehow, these kinds of posts are the most difficult to write. I don’t know why. It’s such a no-brainer to put in hours of research for *writing topic* or spend an evening painting something for an art tutorial, while writing about my personal life never gets easier. And I don’t mean sharing photos of the stuff we’ve been getting up to. Those kinds of posts write like a story.
These honest ones, though. Posts like these mean being vulnerable on the internet. After six years of blogging, that’s still not a feeling I like.
The truth is, it’s been hectic in my house. There’s something big going on behind the scenes, which I can’t share with you at this time. While it’s our news to tell, it affects other people and they’ve asked us to hold off on letting everyone else know what’s going on.
It’s nothing bad – I promise you. In fact, it’s fantastic for our little family. (No, I’m not pregnant.) Having said that, this kind of thing does come with an obscene amount of angst, which sometimes turns that nervous excitement into a constant knot in one’s stomach.
Add the fact that we’re steadily closing in on the two-year mark in Germany and haven’t seen the family in over a year, and you’ll understand how the heart can pull southwards. We miss our loved ones so much. I honestly can’t even put that into words.
Having to deal with something emotionally draining without the support network handy isn’t easy. One moment, I soar to the top of the world, which makes crashing down the next so much more intense.
Now, I see that face. You’re like, “Yolandie, you seem fine!”
Sure. That’s the look I was going for. I’ve always been the kind of person who deals with stress, heartache or trauma by ignoring it. Not a healthy habit, I know, but the flight instinct is so strong in me that I know no other way. Ignore and conceal, much like Elsa in Frozen. Too. Many. Kids. Movies.
Okay, so you know. The past four or so months have consisted of oodles of stress, drama and hiding what I feel.
The good news is we’ve had an update regarding the subject this morning, which has basically left me blubbering since before the sun rose, but I must admit I feel lighter today than I have in ages. Good news does wonders for the soul. 🙂 We’re headed into a busy time, folks. Busy, exciting and just a tiny bit intimidating. I hope to be able to share this new adventure with you soon.
As far as everything else is concerned, it’s going well.
Kayla is epic. She’s smart and compassionate and sweet. Mischievous, but sweet. I have no idea how she manages to be so amazing, but it seems to come naturally to her. Jan would tell you I see her through mummy-goggles, but that doesn’t make any of the statements about her less true.
You know I’ve been writing, and I’ve been making more art than I have in a long time. Art is a fantastic stress reliever. I’ve even taken some commissions! The betas seem to be enjoying The Physician’s Apprentice and the new stuff I’ve been writing excites me.
So you see, I don’t have much to complain about, aside from anxiety. In the coming time, this probably won’t lessen, but it should be more exciting than worrying from here on out. I’ll keep you posted.
I hope you have an awesome weekend.